DAY 29: Stella at her oncology appointment.
Thank you to everyone who has participated in my request to post something pink today for breast cancer awareness. It means a lot to me. I keep doing this because if by asking people to post pink in October and those pink fotos are seen, anywhere, and ONE person has a mammogram or does a self breast exam , whether they find a lump or not, then maybe ALL of this won't have been in vain.
This month the Sisterhood celebrated it's 9th anniversary. I sporadically keep a blog still, but I am always several posts behind and never get caught up. I tried so hard this month to post a daily image for breast cancer awareness , but got discouraged and behind. Part of me says it is time to let go of the Sisterhood, but it would be wonderful to keep this project up for one more year. Yet, as I write this I am crying.... Next year, if I do not ask, would you all remember me and the Sisterhood and on the last Sunday in October turn Smugmug Pink for one day? Please.
My doctors say that my body has responded well to iBrance, faslodex, and exgeva (the cancer drugs I have to take to stay alive.) I'm told that my prognosis is fantastic and I may be here in five or ten more years. However, the price I pay to stay alive is constant fatigue, nausea, and a compromised immune system. I suffer constant pain as well. I stay home and sleep a lot.... which isn't much of a life.
I keep fight, though, because El Jay (Logan) turns 16 soon and he needs a mom/parent. I have two precious grand daughters, as well, and I cherish every moment I have with them and the rest of my children. I have so many things i want to still do, with the Sisterhood project being one of them, but I have to pick and choose carefully what is truly important.